FEELINGS V: ALMOST FOUR MONTHS IN POLAND

About to complete 4 months in Poland , I want to stop for a moment and analyze what is happening around me. I must say that my feelings about wanting to stay here has not changed. Moreover, with each passing day my desire to stay here indefinitely are greater. Time passes very quickly and really I do not want to get the date on my project ends. I am really scared because I do not know what will happen . Will I have enough resources to live here?  Will things change a lot after the project ? Would be difficult to find a job? Many questions in my head daily but that certainly will work and I will do my best to make my dream to live in Poland , reality.

My happiness here is still full . There are a few hiccups but overall , things are working properly. I have started teaching Spanish in Szansa and  I am so glad , because there are so many people interested! I have twenty children attending my Spanish classes ! I am really happy and I will work hard to do my best !

In Dolina Milosci , everything is just as well. I can even say it is better : children rely more on me and hugs and expressions of affection are a constant ! I love these kids ! They make my day ! On the 29th of this month , we will celebrate in Kromolin The Spanish evening : Typical Spanish music, typical food , salsa ... I can not wait ! I will tell you !

As for the language , I think I am improving a lot. I do not have as many classes as I would like because Darek traveling much , but Ula help me and I try to study on my own too, so I do not lose much either. I got help from several people and above all, interact with the local people is what helps me to learn the language.

As for my new partner say that the situation is a bit complicated ... He not much contact with us because he do not know English and he  is frightened for it ... It really is a difficult situation because we want to help him but we do not know how ...

The weather is getting worse but my life here is getting better. That is the most important. I have met really lovely people and I feel great. I can only continue to give thanks for all this. Lately , I feel a little stressed and I find it harder to focus : many feelings , many different situations that have revolutionized my life but I know that this is temporary. Just I have to enjoy everything that life offers me and build my happiness.

As for love ... ainss... is always so complicated ... Fear often paralyzes me . I feel like when I like someone and I show it , that person loses interest in me ... perhaps I imagining it but it is something that always worries me. I have to try not to think too much and feel but the fear of disappointment , pain , to hurt me is so great that many times I am the one who put barriers . I have known several people, including a very special person ... the only thing I can say at the moment ... :)

To that end, this experience is still the best of my life and I do not want out!! I am happy! Thank you!