PEOPLE HELP THE PEOPLE

As my mother always says, "Everything has a solution except death" and how right she is! A week after my "explosion" I must say that everything is going well and slowly, my problems, those problems that seemed impossible to solve are not so important. This week, I have noticed many things. The first, and for me, the most worrying is that I behaved like a selfish. I have just been thinking about myself  and that my problems were the most important. I have locked myself that I have not let others come out to me. I distrusted the people who have been helping me when they are in more trouble situation than me. I forgot to smile, I had forgotten how beautiful life is, how lucky I am, what wonderful friends I have, and that my family support me and love me in the distance. Sometimes, I worry so much about wanting to be perfect for the others so I forget about the others. I want to apologize for my behavior. It was not right and I am sorry if I have hurt you. I am so sorry...

I have realized that this life is not to live individually. We need others to learn, to grow, to live. I am a very independent person, maybe too much. I was thinking that ask for help was a sign of weakness, that ask for help was disturbing. But I did not realize that people were helping me without telling me and I just thought about myself and my problems ... how wrong I was! So now, I will care more for my friends and family because without you I am nothing. Thank you very much!

Regarding this issue, I have also realized I do not appreciate and do not express my feelings to the people I love. I am afraid to say that I love you, but it is something we all need to express and feel. People who appreciate me tell me and show me love. Now it is my turn to tell you that I love you so much and I will be by your side always. People from Endorfina Glogów, Bbl Glogów, my colleagues and friends from Szansa, my family and loved ones from Spain and rest of the world: Thanks for being in my life, for not to let my dream over, for making me smile, for making me happy, for everything! I love you. <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OmLNs6zQIHo 

(People help the people, Birdy)

YESTERDAY

Yesterday, I had a crisis. Strong crisis. Yesterday I exploded ... Since I returned to Poland, I have been dragging a lot of stress and worries about my future here. Actually, my expectations were too high and now I have hit a wall. Nevertheless, I have always tried to stay positive and optimistic, always with a smile on my face. And I thought that would work. Until yesterday, I collapsed. I burst to mourn. From my mouth out hundreds and hundreds of  "I can not, I can not, I am not able..." So much time trying to convince me that everything was fine until yesterday something made me see that things are not going well. Yesterday I broke down, but I have not given up. This is another battle that I have to face. One of many battles. So far, I have not lost because I am still alive. I know myself and I know, that this "crisis" should happen. It is a warning that something is wrong and must change. So now, Sara, you have to fight like never before. In the end, I will win the battle for me and for all the people who love me.