FEELINGS...

I think it is time to analyze after a month and a half living in Poland. How time flies! In one month and a half, I had fun, I have met new places and new people, I have experienced new sensations, new feelings, I was in love and out of love ... In one month and a half I have lived more than a year. And I do not want that this experience end. Really, right now, I do not wish to return to Spain. I am very happy here. People do not understand why, they tell me that I must wait for winter, that I had little time here and everything is new to me, that the quality of life in Spain is better ... But I do not think so. I believe that in life, each person seeks his place in the world. I do not know if my place is here in Poland but I know  that Spain is not my place. Actually, I can say I have never been as happy as I am now and I do not want to end. 

And you will ask me ... There is nothing to not like me? Well, there is just something I do not like: I hate to be the prize of anyone and I do not like anyone use me because I am novelty. I do not want people to approach me as if I were an exotic object and, as time goes by, people forget me. It is something that I understand and that I can expect to happen. Will be with me the person that really love me. That I have it clear. So it is not a problem for me. I am learning what the others think about me I care less. Is important the image that others have of you but you should not change to please others. I have always imported provide a good image of me to others and I have suffered a lot for it. Now  I try not to worry so much about this. But I do care what people think of me in my work. I am an energetic girl, curious, I like to go out, meet people, have fun ... but that does not mean that I am crazy, irresponsible or reckless. I know how to behave at all time and I do not want  that in my work people will have a image of me wrong. I will take advantage of this experience to learn and offer the best of me. With effort and hope I get to grow as a  good person and a good professional.

About love ...

I think it is interesting to analyze the theme of love in EVS experience. Right now, I am in a time when suddenly, all my safety and confidence is gone, because I really like a person and  I do not know his feelings to me. I have had experience with other boys but I do not feel the same way I feel now. But ... What can I expect from a relationship with a person that I can not communicate fluently? Is language a barrier to love? What about age? Is an impediment age difference? I am 28 years old, although most people here think I am much younger. Really, I see only chance of having a relationship with younger guys than me because the society in Glogów is very conservative and the girls and boys with my age are already engaged / married and / or have children.  I am not looking for a relationship because I have not come to Poland for this, but I think about this. What should I expect then? Am I too old? Should I settle for a superficial love? Should I focus on my work and forget about the men? Probably yes ... 

Many issues  I will surely be able to answer in the next posts ... Or not ... ;)